still need to find a thing to do to be a person people want to be around
always feel like at any moment i could completely loose my personality and never want to speak again but also feel uneasy thinking of myself as a person that ‘has a personality’ because it doesn’t really feel like it but that also seems dramatic
another thing is i remembered the way my mum said curly kale the other day and ran up and down stairs but it didn’t release any endorphins i dont think
everything i think feels like a metaphor i hate thinking things and then making them feel like metaphors and feeling basic what if metaphors dont exist and everything is just or can be a metaphor anyway maybe everything i think about is a metaphor for things i think about
today i found it hard to open my eyes wide and bought a blender that doesn’t really work
i need to stop doing this
